Over Doing It......Parenting

I remember when Sophie was first born.  My pride and joy.  I would do anything for her, and I made so many promises to myself about how I would parent and how I wouldn't parent.  I wouldn't say and do some of things my parents did when I was a kid.  I would carry on some of the wonderful things about my childhood that my parents created for my brothers and me. I would always stay calm and foster a good environment for her.

Well, not all of that remained true.  I mean, I think I am good father, and I think that shows through what a wonderful little girl she is turning out to me.  Kacy and I are not perfect by any means, but Kacy is a wonderful, strong and caring mother and I continually challenge myself to be a better parent everyday. Sometimes your best intentions fall by the side of the road as you hurry through life.  I am going to school and working and while both of those things hold promise of a better future for all of us, I also know that the kids don't get to see me as much anymore.  They miss me, but I only have the best in mind as I work toward my goals.


The one thing I have been struggling with lately is being to hard on Sophie.  Now that Max is here, and he is the baby, I somehow have found myself treating Sophie like a 10 year old or something.  I feel so bad afterward because she constantly reminds me through he sweet dependance on her "pink puppy" or her blanket lovey that she is still a baby.  A sweet little three year old that really doesn't always know better, despite my accusations.  She shouldn't always have to act like a big girl, despite my demands sometimes, because she is a little girl, and should be for as long as I can keep her that way.  I really should learn to distinguish between the baby, Max, and the little bit bigger baby, Sophie, when I am dealing with diciplinary situations or maybe over reacting to something one or the other does.  They are both my little babies and sometimes, instead of urging Soph to grow up too soon by demanding too much, I should just bite my tongue and squeeze her as tight as I can and tell I love her.